aw crap

I stayed up till 4am watching Greek episodes on Hulu. I missed my communications class- haven't been there since 2 weeks ago. I skipped once and once it was cancelled. I also missed my Political Thought class- I'm flipping screwed because I have no friends in that class and I need to somehow get the notes; I wonder if she passed out our tests, I think I did horribly. College sucks and I don't like this feeling.

polar opposites

Two blinded fools attempted a brazen challenge
They forced a path that was never meant to be created
A gauche girl, a boy who lingers in history
A deign pair for so many reasons
Animosty that originated during, and ongoing,
accumulated to their forecasted end
Simple reason: Polar Opposites

later, gator

WORDPRESS

meant to be

aw cute. in the end, all the leftover trash somehow finds each other and clumps as one. unwanted and strongly disliked by others, they found common ground with each other, and now they unite. too bad nobody still cares.

full circle.

Here I am, back again
Why is it that I can't ever have it normal?
It's always the same, they use you.
While holding a despicable past or some filthy intention.
Why can't I come across someone normal, someone with a normal mind.
Is our society that corrupted, that all they can focus on is instant gratification?
Wasted minutes, wasted thoughts.
A great actor, has everyone fooled.
They all believe what you present to be
but I see it, I hear it.
That disgusting hidden you, that's mourning and screaming
your innermost secret.
Knowledge is power, and now I know
I can finally let it all go, because you're just another one
There goes by, another "one of those"

disappointment

i don't think
i have ever
been this disappointed
in a while

just from that one glance
i want to cut off all connections with you
it wasn't like there was anything there
to begin with

sure, that's how it goes
sure, that's what they say
i guess i just respected you
a little too much
than you deserve

but, who am i to judge
we're practically strangers now
i'm going to give up
right here, right now
it's a pointless thing, really
i just can't believe it

i'm probably exaggerating
but who's stopping me?
i can say whatever, do whatever
it's because i have morals, i limit myself
i thought you did too, do you?

obviously not.

asdfghjkl

-searching for a new church. asking God to lead me.
-can't stop reading the twilight saga
-needs to finish studying for many classes
-needs to go over the sat2 lit subject test book
-wants to read wuthering heights
-has to study more art history
-never a peaceful moment.

things have changed. people have changed.
i used to like the person you were, i don't even know who you are today.
maybe you're the same, maybe alot has changed.
i know i've definitely changed, i'm not the same as last year.
i realized what i was lacking, i've realized my flaws.
i'm trying hard to fix them, i wish i had a chance to show you.
but would you care? would you budge?
i waste my time wondering how you would react
it's better off, for me to forget it
it's becoming to feel so tiresome and disappointing
waiting for you.